Me
It is very wild. One could almost think that in such a place the worship of Pan had never quite died out.
Mortimer
The worship of Pan never has died out, Syl. Other newer gods have drawn aside his votaries from time to time. But he is the Nature-God all must come back to at last.
Me
I am religious myself, and don’t like to hear my beliefs spoken of as mere aftergrowths. But it is at least hopeful to hear you talk with such energy and conviction.
Me
You don’t really believe in Pan, of course?
Mortimer
I’ve been a fool in most things, but I’m not such a fool as not to believe in Pan. Not when I’m down here. And if you’re wise you won’t disbelieve in him too boastfully while you’re in his country.
Mortimer
You are shaking like a leaf. What happened on your walk?
Me
I ventured on a tour of inspection of the farm. A farmyard suggests in my mind a scene of cheerful bustle, with churns and flails and smiling dairymaids. My mind runs to teams of horses drinking knee-deep in duck-crowded ponds. But not down here at this time.
Mortimer
Are you sure you are not over dramatising?
Me
No. As I wandered among the buildings of the farm, my first impression was one of stillness and desolation. Twas as though I had happened on some deserted homestead given over to owls and cobwebs. Then came a sense of furtive, watchful hostility. There appeared that same shadow of unseen things that seemed to lurk in the wooded areas. From behind heavy doors and shuttered windows came the stamping of a hoof or a rasp of chain halter. There followed a bellow from a beast.
Mortimer
You describe it vividly.
Me
Then from a distant comer a shaggy dog watched me with intent unfriendly eyes; as I drew near, it slipped into its kennel, and slipped out again just as noiselessly when I had passed. I felt that if I had come across any human beings they would have fled wraith-like from my gaze.
Me
At last, turning a corner quickly, I came upon a living thing that did not fly from me. Stretched out in a pool of mud was an enormous sow, gigantic beyond a town-girl’s wildest computation of swine-flesh. It was speedily alert, appearing to resent and if necessary repel the unwonted intrusion. It was my turn to make an unobtrusive retreat. I threaded my way past rickyards and cowsheds and long blank walls. I started at a strange sound — the echo of a boy’s laughter, golden and equivocal.
Me
I thought at the time it was just Jan, the boy employed on the farm, that tow-headed, wizen-faced lad. But he was visibly hard at work on a potato clearing half-way up the nearest hillside. Could it have been somebody else laughing?
Mortimer
No. I know of no other probable or possible begetter of the hidden mockery that you’ve described.
Me
The memory of that untraceable echo added to my other impressions. I felt that a furtive sinister “something” hung around Yessney farm today.
Mortimer
This farm is not ordinarily like that, Syl. You must wait awhile to be accepted by everyone.
Me
I will never be accepted by the place itself, though. There is evil in it.
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